Love is... complicated. Its hard, frustrating and can even be heartbreaking. But love is amazing. It's heartfelt, mesmerizing, and breathtaking. It's sweet and when you find it you never want to let it go. If it's so incredible why do people take it and hold it, caress it, then drop it and walk away like there was never anything there? Why is it ok for people to take it for granted and to use it for personal gain. I want to find someone to love me for me and not what I can give them physically but for how i can help them grow to be a better person. I think that i would find life unbearable without the taste of love. Without holding someone close to me knowing that a part of you with them. I just wish for once someone would say those three words and mean it, then stick around because those words are said to much with no meaning and not enough with true intent. I love you! is it that hard to say?
I love you. I love you with all my heart and nothing can change that. (don't say that then let things change it in an instant)
You cant stop loving someone in a day. Love doesn't work like that. I believe love is a feeling, and a choice. You must continue to work on it everyday, just like your testimony. If you don't you WILL lose it, and it will be devastating.
So let me ask you this...
When was the last time you said I love you and meant it? And when are you going to allow love to be in your heart again? I'm here waiting for love. Are you? Are you waiting for love or are you looking for love? Love is right in front of you. Go for it. Don't be afraid to be let down because true love is worth ALL of the hardships you'll ever go threw.
Let love in, and let it flourish.
I love you
~amanda

Life and Loves complicated mess

Wow, this week has been nuts!!! Do you ever wonder why life is soooo complicated? Then you through love in the mix and mind as well throw in the towel. Well im a big hopeless romantic. I believe that there is nothing better then to become a wife and mother, but to get there seems almost impossible. What to do, what to do.... Should i throw my heart back into the pool? Should i be willing to risk it all again? Well whether i should or not.. im doing it. Actually i tried... but i guess rejection is just part of life and you cant be afraid of rejection cause if you are you'll never get anywhere. You must risk everything including your happiness (for a short time) to be with the person you want to be with. Even if it means hanging back in the background and being friends or maybe it means trying more then once. Go for it! True love is worth more then life itself. Its worth every heartache and every tear. Dont be afraid to find love cause if you are love wont come find you and for me thats scaring knowing if i didnt try i could lose the opportunity for love and trust me, you dont want to miss out.